Living In the World, Not on It

Every breaking wave on the shore Tells the next one "there'll be one more" And every gambler knows that to lose Is what you're really there for Summer I was fearless Now I speak into an answer phone Like every fallen leaf on the breeze Winter wouldn't leave it alone, alone If you go... If you go your way and I go mine Are we so... Are we so helpless against the tide? Baby, every dog on the street Knows that we're in love with defeat Are we ready to be swept off our feet And stop chasing every breaking wave? Every sailor knows that the sea Is a friend made enemy Every shipwrecked soul knows what it is To live without intimacy I thought I heard the captain's voice But it's hard to listen while you preach Like every broken wave on the shore This is as far as I could reach If you go... If you go your way and I go mine Are we so... Are we so helpless against the tide? Baby, every dog on the street Knows that we're in lov...

I think the kids are in trouble Do not know what all the troubles are for Give them ice for their fevers You're the only thing I ever want anymore We live on coffee and flowers Try not to wonder what the weather will be I figured out what we're missing I tell you miserable things after you are asleep Now we'll leave the silver city 'cause all the silver girls Gave us black dreams Leave the silver city 'cause all the silver girls Everything means everything It's a Hollywood summer You'll never believe the shitty thoughts I think Meet our friends out for dinner When I said what I said I didn't mean anything We belong in a movie Try to hold it together 'til our friends are gone We should swim in a fountain Do not want to disappoint anyone Now we'll leave the silver city 'cause all the silver girls Gave us black dreams Leave the silver city to all the silver girls Everything means everything I was afraid I'd eat your brains I was afraid I...

I am a forester of this land As ye may plainly see, It's the mantle of your maidenhead That I would have from thee. with me roo-run-rority ri-run-rority ri-no-ority-an. He's taken her by the milk-white hand, And by the leylan sleeve, He's lain her down upon her back And asked no man's leave. with me roo-run-rority ri-run-rority ri-no-ority-an. Now since you've lain me down young man You must take me up again, And since you've had your will on me, Come tell to me your name. with me roo-run-rority ri-run-rority ri-no-ority-an. Some call me Jim, some call me John, Begad it's all the same, But when I'm in the king's hight court Erwilian is my name. with me roo-run-rority ri-run-rority ri-no-ority-an. She being a good scholar She's spelt it over again, Erwilian, that's a Latin word, But Willy is your name. with me roo-run-rority ri-run-rority ri-no-ority-an. Now when he heard his name pronounced, He mounted his high...

I am the harm which you inflict. I am your brilliance and frustration. I'm the nuclear bombs if they're to hit. I am your immaturity and your indignance. I am your misfits and your praised. I am your doubt and your conviction. I am your charity and your rape. I am your grasping and expectation. I see you averting your glances. I see you cheering on the war. I see you ignoring your children, And I love you still. And I love you still. I am your joy and your regret. I am your fury and your elation. I am your yearning and your sweat. I am your faithless and your religion. I see you altering history. I see you abusing the land. I see you, your selective amnesia, And I love you still. And I love you still. Haaaaaaaaahh I see you averting your glances. I see you cheering on the war. I see you ignoring your children, And I love you still. And I love you still. I see you altering history. I see you abusing the land. I see you, your selective amnesia, I love you still. And I love you st...

Face down on a broken street There’s a man in the corner in a pool of misery I’m in a white van as a red sea covers the ground Metal crash I can’t tell what it is But I take a look and now I’m sorry I did. 5:30 on a Friday night 33 good people cut down I don’t believe anymore I don’t believe anymore Face down on a pillow of shame There are some girls with a needle trying to spell my name My body’s not a canvas My body’s now a toilet wall I don’t believe anymore I don’t believe anymore Raised by wolves Stronger than fear Raised by wolves We were raised by wolves Raised by wolves Stronger than fear If I open my eyes, You disappear I don’t believe anymore I don’t believe anymore Boy sees his father crushed under the weight Of a cross in a passion where the passion is hate. Blue mink Ford, I’m gonna detonate and you’re dead Blood in the house, Blood on the street The worst things in the world are justified by belief Registration 1385-WZ I don’t believe anymore I don’t believe anymore Raise...

Golden leaves looked brown to me, The world had less color without you Shapes in the sky, looked plain to my eye, The world had less color without you I know pleny' of people with eyes closed They don't see you like I do Darling I do Notes on the keys, meant nothing to me The world didn't sing without you Birds in the trees fell silent for me The world didn't sing without you Without you I know pleny' of people with eyes closed They don't see you like I do Darling I do, darling I do see you I know pleny' of people with eyes closed They don't see you like I I know pleny' of people with eyes closed They don't see you like I know Pleny' of people with eyes closed They don't see you like I do Darling I do, darling I do, darling I do,I do, Darling I do, darling I do, see you Dedicated to Luis, my love Song by Landon Pigg

This was a very long time ago, as I'm 46 now. Anyone who knows me well now would laugh at the idea that I might be jealous - a totally ridiculous thought. But anyone who knew me when I was a kid, or a very young adult - up to age 18 - would possibly (well, very likely) recall this. I certainly do, but it was a life-lesson that steered me in the right direction. This doesn't mean that there wasn't any work that I'd to do; it took me more than one year to train myself to not fall into this kind of trap. It was the best time I ever spent working on an issue that destroys so many people. The other factor was someone I met not long after I treated myself for this issue. He made me see this from the other side, convincing me that this was the truly worst  kind of problem to have. I also had a huge inferiority complex that very nearly wrecked my life and the jealousy fit in quite nicely with it. I shall at some point or another need to tackle this as well in my blog, t...

Yeh, yeh yeh yeh yeh Uhm hmm hm hm It's a wonderful night You've gotta take it from me It's a wonderful night Come on and break it on down It's a wonderful night You've gotta shake it for me It's a wonderful night Come on and break it on down It's a wonderful night Everybody can see It's a wonderful night Come on and break it on down It's a wonderful night Go ahead and release It's a wonderful night Come on and break it on down You know the music search engine need a tuneup Soon as they out the gate they all a wanna hear da corner, uh-huh Well that was cool but now but then I heard a rumor, uh-huh Your crew was ridin' for the White Cliffs of Dover Uh let me tell ya how we do it in California We'll have you on the run just like a puma If it don't move us Ain't paid ya dues and it ain't gonna get our roosers We gonna lose ya to the consumer solution c'...

I was there when you needed me most I was there when you wanted me least I was your father, your son and your holy ghost and priest Through your failings and success Through your losses and gains I didn’t see much happiness or pain I couldn’t save your soul I couldn’t even take you home I couldn’t feel at home Alone I saw you at your best I knew you at your worst I couldn’t tell if you were blessed or cursed There’s a thin grey line between the black and the white It’s evidently hard to find the night I couldn’t save your soul I couldn’t even take you home I couldn’t play that role Alone Now it’s too… Too late for words that should’ve have been said Long ago I was there when you needed me most I was there when you wanted me least I was your father, your son and your holy ghost and priest I couldn’t save your soul I couldn’t even take you home I couldn’t fill that hole Alone Dedicated to Luis, for filling that hole, that space. I love you more tha...

Memory comes when memory's old  I am never the first to know  Following the stream up North  Where do people like us float  There is room in my lap  For bruises, asses, handclaps  I will never disappear  For forever, I'll be here  Whispering  Morning, keep the streets empty for me Morning, keep the streets empty for me   I'm laying down, eating snow  My fur is hot, my tongue is cold  On a bed of spider web  I think of how to change myself  A lot of hope in a one man tent  There's no room for innocence  Take me home before the storm  Velvet mites will keep us warm  Whispering  Morning, keep the streets empty for me Morning, keep the streets empty for me Morning, keep the streets empty for me Morning, keep the streets empty for me   Uncover our heads and reveal our souls  We were hungry before we were born Song by Fever Ray